Alright Well Here It Goes
I wanted to have to admit this to somebody because I can’t bear to admit a weakness to anyone. It’s very difficult for me. But I think the first step to getting over something is admitting that there’s something to get over. I’m depressed. I know it. I’m going to go see a psychologist on Monday but I know it. I’m not suicidal. I just have a tough time with life. Everything about it. Waking up is hard. I struggle with a lot of things that are just part of living. I feel everything at once and then all of a sudden, nothing at all. When I admitted all this to someone over the phone, I told them that it’s like speeding downtown on a deserted city street. The lights all fly past and everything is so intense and colorful, but in a terrifying way because you know you’re going too fast. That’s what feeling everything is like. And then, imagine that you’re speeding and then all of a sudden are on a road in the middle of a desert, stopped. Everything is empty. That’s what it’s like. And it happens in a matter of minutes for me. I couldn’t think of a better group of people to admit this too, so thank you all in advance for reading my little blurb. Thank you for being my witness.